The Lord is our Portion

The Lord is our Portion

Thursday, March 13, 2014

learning to let things go...(still)

 
So yesterday I was totally being stretched out of my comfort zone when it was almost lunch and our breakfast dishes were still in the sink...but our little one was happy cause she had her Momma holding and playing with her. 
After coming home with Blessing #6 and prior to my hubby returning to work he was telling me that its ok to let the dishes sit in the sink and was reminding me to focus on the important. 
 Almost 20 years of being a Momma (wow-that makes me feel old) you would think by now I would know how to just let some things go -I don't!  I do like to have things in my home neat and orderly and sometimes can fall into perfectionism and control. I am better than I used to be when I first got married but I still struggle with my expectations of myself.
 
So I am keeping my expectations low...learning to give grace to myself when:
*there is a sink full of dishes
*we have had to order carry outs, got fast food or dinner was just thrown together and was not the best
*the laundry gets piled up and excepting help from my daughter 
*my husband's offer to help do some grocery shopping
*our kids help each other with their school lessons
*I can't take or drive our big kids somewhere
*I don't reply to peoples correspondence quickly
 
Adoption/Orphan care and being Momma to 6 children is the ministry that I am called to serve right now. I pray that I will be more like Mary than Martha and remember what is truly important. "But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:41-42
 
"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you" Matthew 6:33       

"So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90:12
 
"The heart of man plans his ways, but the Lord establishes his steps." Proverbs 16:9
 
 “But he said to me, `My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me” 2 Corinthians 12:9

 “Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus” Philippians 1:6
 
  "Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms." 1 Peter 4:10 

 So thankful that the Lord is not done guiding and shaping me yet... "But now, O Lord, you are our Father; we are the clay, and you are our potter; we are all the work of your hand" Isaiah 64:8 

At the end of the day I was able to savor all the sweet things I had accomplished: spent time in Gods Word and in prayer, was able to finish a cup of coffee while it was still hot, held my little ones, seen smiles on all my kids faces, got kisses, played and had a got to talk to a sweet adoptive mamma friend on the phone uninterrupted when hubby got home. I am sure at the end of my life I will not value that I always had my breakfast dishes done before lunch! 
 
By the way my sweet daughter- Blessing #2 with her servants heart surprised me and did all the breakfast and lunch dishes while I was laying the 2 little ones down for their naps! She is such a blessing to me I will miss her tremendously when she goes to college in the fall.

Sunday, March 9, 2014

One month forever in our arms...already!

 
  
The day we had been waiting for arrived one month ago today- we finally had our daughter in our arms.  We praise God for what He has done by leading us on this journey again.  She is beautiful just like the meaning of her Chinese name- "luxuriant and beautiful; exuberant". To hold her in our arms filled us with so much joy and love...time seemed to be still as if we were the only ones in the room. It is amazing how all your fears and doubts can all be erased in a single moment...she is worth all the time we had to wait.
There was a time in this process we doubted if we were supposed to be on this path again. We are not rich (by US standards) so financially we were worried. Also, our wait was longer than the projected timeframe our agency originally stated so we (impatiently) were growing weary with waiting and doubts. We asked a few people to pray for discernment for us...all while God was doing things we never imagined. During this time our agency got its first partnership with an orphanage in China and our daughter was the first referral from that new partnership, which totally is a amazing God thing. Well this past week I was talking with our caseworker and she mentioned that another agency said "you must have built a really good relationship with X* in order to get that partnership" and she said "no, we just offered help if they needed us" another major God thing because this area in China is very private so for them to just accept our agency's help-cannot be explained any other way than the Lord. I am in awe once again how God works...and blesses me even when I feel undeserving-but that's His character-He delights in blessing us because He loves us.
what a beautiful glimpse of what Heaven will look like-
so happy to have all our blessings under our roof this week
For a month so far we have been blessed with the privilege to be BaBa(Daddy) and MaMa to our sweet little one and for two weeks now she has been a Mei Mei (little sister) to 5 siblings who adore her. We feel abundantly blessed by having her in our family. She adds an extra dose of joy to our home. She just radiates happiness. I have cried many happy tears praising God for what He has done and given us. I am so thankful we continued in faith to follow Him and not let our doubts or fears to take over. Even more than before we are convinced that God always has the perfect plan in His timing.
love from her big sister 
 
fun in the tent we made
  
       
 

Saturday, March 1, 2014

1 week home - what we have been doing

 
Wow can't believe its been a week already! Seems like forever -yet feels like yesterday...probably because we are still fighting jet lag and trying to adjust to this time zone. My crazy body wants to either get up at 3a.m. or be up past midnight...yet I fall asleep every night in the chair while rocking Blessing #6 which cracks my big kids up. Hubby is usually up late every night and then his body wants to sleep in late.

So thankful for my adoptive momma friend who brought us dinner and groceries this week. That was such a blessing for our family - I especially loved my side dish of salt!  Also, so blessed by our oldest daughters servant heart - this week she completely did all the laundry for us! I love how she seen a need and stepped in to help.

This week we have been trying to stay at home and just enjoy time together getting to bond as a family. Hubby thankfully had this week off. He is excited to get back to work though - he's been off for almost a month and is going through withdrawals! He's been working since he was 12 years old and has never been off work that long! We were blessed before we left his boss informed him they give time off paid for medical situations so with her special need and our doctor appointments this week he didn't have to use his vacation time as he qualified for the medical time off...God is great! 

We had a couple doctor appointments for our lil girl scheduled for this week. Thankfully- overall they went really well. We had lots of blood work done with our pediatrician and praise God that all came back ok - just low vit. D which we can treat easily. We were concern about something else possibly going on but with blood work being ok we will just watch it - and return to pediatrician within 6 months. She is such a little peanut she is 75% height but 10% weight -funny she weighs the exact same as our son did when he came home from Ethiopia! but he was 1 and she is 2. We are glad though since her embassy medical in China she has gained a pound....and is getting a little chunk on her legs.

We are praising the Lord for directing us to the specialist team we are with that will do her surgery they were great with her. Before we even contracted to do this adoption our pastors wife and I were having lunch together, at the time she didn't know we were praying about a special needs adoption, well she mentioned her brother in law is a pediatric surgeon-it was one of those moments God implants in your brain to not forget! the kind where you get goose bumps. Then 6 months later my sister used this same specialist team for her son. So when we got our daughters referral we already knew where she would go for surgery. In fact our pastors wife's brother in law read our little girls referral medical for us and helped explained her diagnoses and what treatment will look like. They were wonderful with her and very respecting of the fact she has only been home less than a week. She will be having a small surgery and then 6 weeks later another surgery.

A cute thing we discovered about our lil girls is that she LOVES meat! like she will take it off your plate-loves it. One morning she had chicken with her eggs- umm yah something doesn't seem right about that! Hubby says for her the chicken came first! 
She still hates car rides - hasn't puked but hates them...and really detests the car seat after about 10 minutes. She looks at me with big tears while trying to undo her seat belt with look in her eyes, "like why are you not holding me like before."  There are no seat belt or car seat laws in China and because of her carsickness in I even sat in the front seat with her on my lap!-crazy although so it almost makes me want to hold her on my lap like I did there.
 
Our little girl is such a blessing to our family. She brings so much joy to all of us. She has the sweetest laugh and is generally a happy calm little girl. Its funny how with adoption God puts in your family what you need - that you didn't know was missing. Hubby and I have enjoyed watching all our kids interact together. Even lil guy is doing great- we were worried how it would be for him loosing his youngest status but he is adjusting well to being the older brother. He is all boy -so its sweet watching him as he already knows he has to be a gentlemen around her and not run her over- and if she does fall or he knocks her over he is concerned/compassionate for her. Of course our big girls love having a little sister and enjoy picking out her clothes - its like a real doll for them! Blessing #6 is getting comfortable with them also, she will let them hold her now and will go to them which makes them all happy. We are blessed more than we could ever imagine. 

                     


total cuteness!